Feeling Aimless + Lost?
“There are some things that are just on repeat in life--like getting hungry, needing to move, wanting closeness + solitude. These things are not isolated experiences, but rather part of a bigger machine. So even though my impulse is always to resist and fight it, I'm trying to relax a little more each time I circle back around to this stage again.”
Self-Focus
If I wasn't willing to do it for myself now, when would I ever be willing? When will be the time that it will NOT feel selfish to focus on me primarily? In that moment, I saw the flaw in my thinking on this subject and I became willing.
Intention
Once I saw the flaw in this thinking, I was finally free to invest the time, money, supplies and love into the practice. I intentionally redefined my job as someone who learns and studies, and therefore is constantly in a state of growth. Now, I nurture my own development as a justified requirement of the job.